Tag Archives: Poetry

Solar

When I think of you,
My smile blossoms, delicate;
I reach for your sun.


04 Alone

I recently discovered Joseph Gordon-Levitt’s HITRECORD media production company. I decided to just do it because I am tired of being scared. For now.

The first challenge I decided to take part in was Poem Every Day posted by thatwasnotveryravenofyou. Here is the fourth poem I contributed to the collaboration.

04 Alone

Silence fills the room with its laughter;
I can feel what I was missing throughout the day:
The sound of the house adjusting its seat,
The hum of the wires bringing us light,
The intake and exhale of breath in my lungs
a constant reminder that I live.


untitled, august 2015

I want to scream. To cry
To fight
To kick out against the rage
before it eats me whole.
Drowned in the bile of my own self-loathing
I burn and melt away
into puddles of foam

Smothered in something silent, a sadness
Lungs cannot breathe
Blood cannot course
All fades away to a blinding light,
piercing heart with jagged lances,
leaving nothing but bare ash and powdered bone
–a terrible memory of me


An Open Letter

Dear woman in Kohl’s department store
those nine years ago
that thought it was okay to lean over,
whisper to me
among the headless blouses
and empty shirts half turned outside-
in,
that I should “Just lose the weight”

as I contemplated just slicing all the bad parts away
in the mirror while
shopping for myself in the first time in over two years
for interview clothes:

I hope you stubbed your toe
really
really
really badly that day
and that you never have to go through
what you did to me hardly a week
after leaving that emotionally abusive relationship
with an alcoholic husband
who only brought home paychecks and disease
while you suffer from
hallucinatory
post-partum
depression,
returning to your hometown without a place to live
–except your parent’s spare room
or work
–though you hoped to change that soon,
hence the excruciating trip into public
in the first place–

in an effort to heal and build a life for yourself and your child.

I hope

you only ever experience kindness
and that the triumphant expression you bore
as you walked away with head held high
having shared such wisened wisdom with a total stranger
brought you the happiness it seemed to.

At least then my pain would have brought
someone pleasure.


Anxiety

Frozen limbs
A marble granite monster
with thought
A walking vegetative mess
i see you
i know you
i feel you
and feeling chills my blood

A poison strong and crippling
Solidifying my veins
cholesterol of the mind
Thinking Slowing Hardening
Trapped in your own skin
Unable to breathe
Unable to move
Unable to eat away
Starvation
Or to sleep away
Exhaustion

For each baby step carve
Yourself out of the
mountainside of air
Oppressing
Squashing into jelly
legs that no longer work

A tension so bittersweet for
The Opposite
lies only with death


thankful

for new sunrises
intimately knowing how
to guide one’s heart true


,and so–i trust him with my heart

,and so–i trust him with my heart
–with my heart, he trusts me

i smile: his smile and love: his love
for all the world to see

and with his arms ‘twined with my arms
we dance so merrily

for i love my love because i know
my love loves me


in hiding

I bawk at sunlight
not trusting the warmth to not
hide behind lightning


the hardest part

racing hare heartbeat
wanting to know what might be
’round the crooked bend


slow and steady

slow and steady say
a solid oak upward grows
branches let one fly